Survival List

Think back, way back. Back to the time when you had the power to choose chocolate or vanilla and could take a poop by yourself. What made us happy back then? Think. We didn't have a care in the world. We didn't really need any sort of substance or tool to make us happy or put us in a good mood. Living was enough for us and from what I remember it was great. Fast forward to today. What do we have to do to make ourselves live? Sure we have more things to worry about than sitting in the dirt and getting bugs in our mouths. But has it really changed that much? I remember going to just walk around my house as a little kid and just being happy with looking around. Today I wonder if anyone else still does that. I go on a bike ride just about everyday and do the exact same thing. No iPod shoved in my ears, just the enjoyment of nothing. A great portion of people I know can only do that after they take some kind of hallucinogen. Yesterday we had fun just being in existence, now what makes us happy or occupies our time? Is it emptying bottles, getting a fix, or is it the person you had sex with recently that you never going to talk to again? Why do we need a substance to make things better? I don't use any substances to make myself feel better, happier, or alive. Your going to have to tell me.

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I've been out of school for a week and had my graduation ceremony last Saturday. Everything is going pretty darn good. Hopefully I'll be going back to school in the fall. I'll be making this next tour with No Harm Done up the east coast and into Canada. It should be a lot of fun. Its going to be hard to get a job for a month and then quit. I doubt I'll be able to keep a job if I start and then leave for three weeks or so. Looks like things with Rebecca and I didn't work out. Not sure why, but I'm cool with it. Maybe I call her sometime soon. Went to two shows this past weekend. The Gator Bait CD release and the Fallen From The Sky CD release. Both were very fun. FFTS was the best because of the tiny bar it was in and massive amount of people that were there. I got to see my buddy Jonathan Millan at his new job at Buckle. Its a very over priced store with decent clothing. It was good seeing him though. Hopefully we can jam out or something soon cause its been too long. Thomas won a tie-dye Harley Davidson tank top on Ebay today. Its amazing.

The Last Day

I stayed the same when you tried to change that. Am I not here? I know I'm not fucking invisible. I wanted to feel again and now I remember why I put an end to it.

Give me!

I try to be and selfless as possible. Its going really good. The other day I said something that I shouldn't have. Its something that would be cool if it didn't happen, but its too much about what I want. Time to fix it.

Other than that life is fantastic. The weather is super hot/super nice. Its prefect bike riding weather. Hopefully I can get Becky into riding bikes sow e can do it together. College seems a little out of reach right now. I have no car or license. Still haven't done the drug and alcohol test and I have no credit card to pay for it myself online. Hopefully the DMV still does it. On top of that no money haha. I knew I'd ahve to take out a ton of loans anyway. Oh well, everything will fall into place.