TIFY Quest

This is a 30.4 mile ride. It will be a "good" ride if I am still riding my Bontranger mountain bike haha. I will have a messenger bag full of food and clothes and maybe a sleeping bag.

I am only able to attend the last two days of TIFY (29th & 30th). I've got to save some money and I need to keep working so I will have to made dew with those days. Hopefully I can keep myself from buying everything I want. I do have a lot of money, but it all goes to paying off school.

Current playlist

Ribbons

Today I did a little bit of rough math while I was doing nothing at work today. I figured if I made one hundred dollars a week until I had to pay my tuition on March twentieth starting this week, I would be in the clear. I already have about $700 in the bank as well. I usually make more than that a week. Plus Christmas and my birthday are coming up and usually get some cash flow from that. So I'd like the very few people that read this and give a nice imaginary middle finger to the American flag. I'm not going into debt with loans and I'm so stoked on that. This also means I will have the finances to get my new fixie soon! I might be able to get her a day or so after Christmas if everything goes well. An just in case Chelsie is reading this I put in a picture of me and her Christmas present. Her mother and I have been torturing her about what it is and it has been fun.

Oh Fireworks

When I turned eighteen I made some goals I needed to do before I turned twenty years old. I pretty much forgot what they were since I thought of them when I was awake for about thirty hours. I remembered two of them one of which I have accomplished. One was to get a tattoo, which I got a few months ago in Canada. The other goal I though of was to get back the six pack abs I lost from doing nothing for the longest time haha. I now have two more to add to this and since I writing them in my handy dandy Blogger account I can remember them. One is to record four songs in the hardcore to pop punk style (Undecided) made by myself and do the singing as well. I'll get someone to do that drums seeing as how I'm nt the best in the world. The other is to buy a Les Paul. I don't really care if its a Gibson or not though. I'm pretty content with an Epiphone.

My white fluffy cat Maxwell is super sick. He has been turding and pissing everywhere, and not the "non-stink" poops. These smell unbearable to these nostrils. My mother is taking him to the vet. He decided to turd all over himself in the cat carrier before she left. I bet that was a sight to see/ smell.

TIFY is coming up and I am stoked as ever. I haven't been in a year or two due to either lack of money or being on tour with the now multi-platinum No Harm Done. I have the money and the time off this year so I can make the time in my super duper busy schedule (I do nothing) to go. Tomorrow should be spent in Orlando with Chris, Dylan, and Nathan to pratice for our power-voilence musical endeavor. This should turn out to be pretty fun. And Matt Cantwell will be returning home in a few days. I wish I could have gone on his US tour with him and all the other people I love (Except for Charles for disclosed reasons between Tommy and I haha).

Rusty in the legs

Today was a seemingly horrible day at first. I got up at 10 and did nothing for a while. I got a call from DSC saying that they were helping people get everything done to enroll for school. I figured if I don't go down there now I never will. My mother offered to take me and I refused and took my bike instead. The weather was really nice the whole way. I haven't been riding my bike as avidly as I usually do so the ride was a little bit of a work out. I had a horrible pain in my upper waist on the left side. I hadn't had one in forever, but I decided to stop being a little boy in diapers getting his first "bike induced scrape" and continued to pedal faster. The pain went away after 5 minutes of vigorous riding. After that pain came another one. I got some numbness in my crotch, but didn't think about it. Later I took a stand to scratch my penis/ball sack to find out that there was a pain in my penis. I guess there wasn't enough blood flow getting to it. I rode standing up for a while and then sat on the seat in a manor where maximum blood flow could continue on its usual path. I arrived at DSC in some good time. 45 minutes. I quickly found the rusted bike rack and headed for the administration office. I was sent to take my CPT. I was extremely nervous. I had not been in school since May of this year. I was in there for about an hour and a half to two hours. I saw my scores and I was dumbfounded to see that I had extremely good ones.

Reading- 96% (Needed a 83% to pass)
Sentence Skill- 88% (Needed a 83% to pass)
Arithmetic- 101% (Needed a 72% to pass)
Elementary Algebra- 72% (Needed a 72% to pass)
College Math- 51% (Needed a 44% to pass)

I was so stoked to find out I passed all the sections. Now I just have to pick my classes and I will be on my way.

In other news I am still winning my secret gift I'm getting for Chelsie for X-mas. If I don't win this I don't know what I will do haha. I'm sure I will get it though, I don't really care how much I have to pay.

Where is your soda?

I started working at Winn Dixie last week. I stock the shelves and tell/show customers where things are in the store. It keeps my busy so its not bad. Last night was the busiest day of the year. Not for stock, but the amount of people in there was crazy. I should have had a sign around my neck that said "Whatever your need is its on isle 8." Tha its where the stuffing, dry milk, bread crumbs, etc was at. It became such a habit for me to say I believe I told some people the wrong isle to go to.

9:37

Life a little rocky. Some things are going good and even great. Others seem hopeless. My relationship with my parents seems to get worse every time we talk to one another. I'm getting no finical help with school. Just getting through the simple registration process has made my life hell thanks to the internet. I think I'm getting worse musically as well. I don't compare to when I was sixteen and had a little girls voice, but could sound like a bear at will. I got a job which is awesome. its in the morning and that could end when school starts up in January. Other than that I feel as if I've been an asshole to my best and most cared about friends for various reasons. Maybe I'm just on my "Male period" and am just down just because. I need a smile on my face.

The Knife

As I type this there is a man outside of my house. "What is he doing you might ask?" This elderly man is sitting on top of a green recycle bin that the Florida Municipal Waste Company gave my family. This man has been other there for an hour or so. At first he was just sitting and whittling on some wood. He then moved the recycle bin he was sitting on further away from where he originally was. Now he is just sitting out by the street. By the looks of it he can quite possibly be waiting for something. But what? Maybe for me to go out and retrieve the recycle bin and stab me? Or could he be homeless and want some change when I venture outside? It could quite possibly be that he intends to steal the recycle bin. This is all uncertain. Just a second ago I got up to go take a gander at the man on the recycle bin to find that he has disappeared. He did not take the recycle bin with him either. Where did he go? Is he still there with a cloaking device waiting for me? Did he walk down the road to sit on other recycle bins? Or was he actually a mutant and had some abnormal way of leaving the spot he was at? The world may never know. I took a picture of the Recycle Bin Man for your viewing pleasure. Also above was the state I was in. That state was FEAR!

Fractures

This past week was pretty darn good if I say so.

Thursday I went with NHD to their show with Shook Ones. While I was there a band called Ramming Speed played and blew me away. They were an awesome thrash metal band and were some super nice dudes. Shook Ones was extremely good as well. I would have picked up some music, but I was flat broke.

Friday I rode with Nathan down to DeLand for some Halloween fun. We were supposed to go to Orlando, but that fell through. We met up with Thomas, Seaira, and Bailey and shortly after more guest such as Samantha, Glenn, Chris, and Tater. The most of us with bicycles ended up going to Samantha's house to hang and eat candy. Chris couldn't eat any candy due to him being vegan and the lack of nothing but chocolate treats. Samantha had an awesome trampoline with a trampoline bike to hurt ourselves with. We watched some television in her massive garage bedroom for a while, until we headed back to Chris' house for the usual food and sleep.

Saturday Chris and Nathan went to Daytona to hang with our buddy Dylan. I would have joined in this adventure, but I had other things that had to be done that day. I wondered around Downtown DeLand for a while talking to the homeless and what not. I talked with my friend Kathryn for a bit before I had to make a trek to Chelsie's house. Turns out Chelsie got a road bike for $19!!!! I pumped up her tires and we went to Downtown DeLand. Nathan made a call to his dad to get me a free ticket for the music festival and ended up giving Chelsie and I both one. We went back to her house and had some nice food before I had to go yet again to Downtown DeLand (Actually Earl Brown Park). There was the Maddie Fest taking place. It was a nuts line-up and time space. My unnamed metal band played it. We kind of just jumped on last minute and played three songs. It was seriously awesome though. I haven't gone that nuts in years. Most of my friends that I wanted to see us play came just a tad too late. We left early to get some Taco Bell and hang at Mikey's house. We stayed up too late doing nothing.

Sunday I was supposed to be home early, but that didn't happen. I thought my mom wanted me home at a different time. I'm not in a little bit of groundation haha. I'm getting closer to 19 and I'm grounded and not very well if I might add. Oh well haha.

Today (Monday) I got a call from Winn-Dixie. I have to take a drug test and after that I've got the job of working stock. Hello waking up at 4:30 am and riding my bike to work to get there by 6 am. Stoked!

Trick or Treat

I got a nice little gift the other yesterday from my friend Kaleigh. I noticed an 10" AFI picture disc in her room and complimented her on it. AFI has been one of my favorite bands since I was like 11 (No Joke). Kaleigh then took it off the wall and handed it to me and told me that she wasn't really into them anymore. I was more than over joyed. It was the two singles off the album "December Underground." I'm not entirly into that album, but just having it is a huge plus. Kaleigh then began to dig in a drawer and gave me another gift. It was the full "December Underground" album on 6 clear 7"s. This was an extreme present from her and I thank her very much.

Kramer Abover Her Bed

Chelsie McVeigh sent me a package last week. The package itself was hilarious. It was decorated with a rebel flag, Sarah Palin, and John McCain on one side. The other side was a cut-out picture of me next to Dale Earnheart. Around Dale and I were the words Daytona 500 (I spent a good part of my childhood there) and burritos, footballs, horses, and random smiley faces. The contents of this package were like no other I've ever recided. I'm pretty its the best peice of mail I'll ever get. Inside was a placstic put-together recorder, Stretch Island Fruit Co Fruit Leather, a crossword puzzel with "Weird n' Wild Creatures" on it, a dreamcatcher, a piece of aromatherapy soap, an iPod case, Ginger Chews, some Bank of America gum, some erasers that are shaped like pineapples, birds, and backetballs, and little fuzzy things. And if that wasn't sweet enough, she stopped by my house while I was hanging out with my friend Richard and dropped off a loaf of pumpkin bread (My favorite bread in the world). This weekend she said she would make me some humus pizza, which I am dying to try. I've got a few things to repay her with. I've got an item that is going to take a while to make, but it will be worth it. Good thing garbage is abumdant.

The Poltergeist

Apparently my Mom has been having strange nightmares of being put in a coffin. She thought the new bed spread that my grandmother gave us had something to do with it, so she gave it away today. She has been acting paranoid all day like one of these is in our house...



I however do not believe in ghosts, demons, etc. My mom has been watching too much of this show...



And too much of this show called Haunted that is on the Discovery Channel. What is a bit more crazy than that is the fact that my parents are planning to attend church again. My parents have been in a church a maximum of five times in the past twenty years, all of which were weddings.

Fantasmo

The past few days have been pretty darn awesome. Friday was one of the best days I've had in a long time. I hung out with Chelsie all day, which is awesome in itself. We made some gnarly vegan cookies. At one point we didn't really know what we were doing, but they turned out good. Her Mom took us out to eat at Anglenia's Pizza. Good food and I love her Mom, Mrs. Terry Lynn. Later Chelsie, her Mom, and her friend Kasey went to go see a movie. I was already really late for Friday Night Frenzy so I didn't go with them. I caught up with the dudes in the Frenzy and bombed some hills and did a little night riding. Chris actually wasn't there. He went to go see Henry Rollins, that lucky jerk. Nathan, Glenn, and I still managed to stay at his house and eat a lot of his food. I actually picked a place to sleep rather than the last time when I passed out on the living room floor with no pillow or blanket. I hung out for a bit the next day. We swung by Stetson to put up some flyers for a Critical Mass in October and had some lunch with the Johnson brothers. I headed back to Orange City to get some stuff done. It kept me up late at night and hoped up on sugar. I killed a brow recluce and woke up too early.

I Just Died A Little

Toonami is over. It is no longer going to be on Cartoon Network anymore. That is the only segment of shows really worth watching anymore and now its gone. All throughout elementary and middle school I watched it everyday at 4 pm. After that it turned to just the weekends. Now its nothing but a memory. What the fuck was Cartoon Network thinking? I have nothing to watch at that channel now!

Swamp Thing

Today I got to hang out with one of my favorite people in the world, my friend Amanda Teague. I had just got back from Trent's house when I remembered that she had off of work today. I texted her and we decided to go on a bike ride. I went over to her house we got get bike out of the shed. She had a sweet pink and white beach cruiser. Her tires were pretty flat so we went to a close by gas station to pump them up. Along the way we had lots of nice conversation. The air pump at the gas station was lame and took me a little bit to pump it up, but I got it done. She wanted to ride to Steak and Shake to check her schedual. When went a little ways up 17-92 and she had realized she dropped her phone. Luckily we found it not to far back and it was in perfect working order. We went down Rode Island to Vertans Memorial and it turned out to be the wrong thing to do. While on Vertans Memorial I got a phone call from my friend Devin saying he say me riding me bike. While I was on the phone a man told me that the sidewalk was flooded. I said thank you for the information and didn't pay any mind to it. I looked at the fooded sidewalk and thought it wasn't too deep to ride across. Thats where I made my mistake. It went from ankle deep to knee deep in no time. It was pretty funny if you ask me. I got my shoes soaked and Amanda was freaking out cause it was nasty water. In our escape out of this Amanda's right peddel fell off. She didn't want to go back in the water so I had to retrive it for her. I came back and attempted to put it back on, but screw that goes into the crank arm was a little stripped. We were about a half mile from Steak and Shake and I offered for her to ride my bike instead of hers. She said there were pliers for me to get the peddel on there so we proceeded. The ride was more than challenging. I was on a really small beach crusier with one peddel with a few small hills ahead of me. It was quite the workout to say the least. I know some people that past by got a kick out of a kid ridding a pink girls bike. We finally got to Steak and Shake and I fixed the peddel with the help of some pliers. Amanda and I hung out for a little bit there as I enjoyed my water and she got a root beer (Good girl). Jessica wanted us to come over so Amanda and I left Steak and Shake to go to her house which wasn't far from Amanda's house to begin with. We took a different route to avoid the last mishap. Apon leaving I realized my seat was extremly low and had to raise it, for maximum speed of course. It looked like a storm was rolling in. The wind was against us and that wasn't too fun. Amanda's tires were going flat again so she must have a little hole somewhere. It was still decent enough to ride the rest of the way to Jessica's house though. Seeing Jessica was very nice, because we don't get to hang out often. It sucks because she pretty much lives down the road. It was nice hanging out with her. I ate one of her bananas and she gave me a huge vegan/vegetarian cook book. She is an awesome girl. I later had to leave to run my mom to Walmart. Walmart is the devil.

Sinical Blast!

The first Critical Mass went over pretty well. Very unorganized, but it was punk as hell. I got to DeLand super early because I needed to get my bike from Chris' house. Every one met at Painter's Park (Black Wall) and there was about eight of us or so. We ended up having to visit a few peoples houses to get them. We rode around Downtown DeLand or a little bit. No course set, just aimless wandering. We got held up by getting water and drunk high schoolers crying about whatever. After that we made our way to Beresford Trail to go to Orange City. That trail is pretty scary at night and you can't see a thing. We had no idea where to go or what to do after that. We went to Nathan's house and ate a bunch of food. Mostly junk food and more junk food. We were either headed to Debary or DeLand. I don't remember why we were going to go to Debary, but we went back to DeLand. On the way back on the trail Thomas, Chris, and Ramon saw a rabbit running in the trail. Then I heard screaming up ahead, because they were riding really fast. I thought that Chris let out a really gros fart. What really happened is that the rabbit was running away from some kind of cat, most likely a panther or bobcat. I would have pooped my pants and kicked my bike into overdrive A few people left the group, but we pressed on. Chris had some Vegan Outreach flyers that we handed out to some people. There was a church out on the courner of a street in Downtown DeLand telling drunk people they were sinners and whatnot. We gave them a Vegan Outreach flyer and then they tried telling us that no eating meat is wrong. I remembered that my friend Danielle told me a verse in Romans about God not caring what you eat and loves everyone the same. A girl was said "Show me, show me!" like it was some sort of contest. I just told her to read the whole book of Romans. We passed out some more flyers to drunks and put some on cars. We went to Stetson for a little rest and to pass around flyers. We were at the fountain in the middle of Stetson when a big group of college kids emerged from their dorm rooms. There was on kid that had his hands and feet tied and was slung over another kid's shoulder. I asumed most of them were drunk by the way they were walking and acting. They threw the kid who was tied up in the fountain and when he tried to get back up a girl pushed him in again. We them went to the dorms and put Outreach flyers on cars. We were leaving and found some brick structures that we rode around in circles quite a few times. Next we headed to Walmart. No reason and no one cared. We got to Walmart and that was our one good break and I stood up and my legs hurt worse than when I was peddling up a hill. We sat on a bench inside for a long time and walked around for about 20 minutes. We left Walmart to go to Chris' house. Nathan and I stayed over and we were so tired. By the time we got home it was about 3 am. It was crazy because we started at 7 pm. We chilled out and watched some Walker Texas Ranger, but fell asleep five minutes into it. Nathan had the best spot to sleep, a small couch. Chris had a recliner and I layed on the floor. It was only temporary, but I stayed there all night. It was a good night and a good ride. Here are a few of the pictures that were taken.


The start at Painter's park. Not everyone was in the picture or was there.


A bike pile-up while we stocked up on snacks and beverages.


Taking the streets by storm!


Ramon getting nasty at a stop sign.


Nathan was getting a little pissy becuase he saw a McCain/Palin sign.


McCain outrages my as well.


When Chris isn't laying out nasty farts he is peeing off of bridges.


We had a grindcore session at Nathan's house. We also ate all of his food.


We reached out inner child again and went to a playground.


Nearing the end we stopped at Walmart. Not many of us left and it was like 2 am.


I agree.

Two for One

This was a In Death We Rise show this past Sunday. It was for Trent's cousin's birthday, who I still have no idea what he looks like. Thaine was sick so Trent had to play drums on a set he had never played before. It was outside and it was hot that day.



After that show we went to Dober's house. By we I mean Dober, Kyle, Gabe, and myself. I ate a bunch of pudding and we paled around. I just do what I do best in that video.


This is the start of the DeLand Chapter of Yabai. There are more people, but it was just Chris, Nathan, and I that day.

No luck finding a job. It sucks and I'm never going to get back to school if this keeps going. Oh well I've got hope!

Emergency

Last night was a night to remember because of one thing... balls.

Anyway I was hanging out with my buddy Chris. He picked up his friends Bailey and Thomas and went to a show at the Black Box in Orlando. We walked around a bit and Bailey and Thomas wandered off into the city. They later sent Chris a picture message of them on a Lynx bus going to the mall. Chris and I went to the show and we hung around, forever I might add. The show didn't start until 9 when it was supposed to start at 6 or 7. Saw some good friends I don't see often met some new people I would not like to see again. Then I met a rat. Not just any ordinary rat. This rat had the most monster balls I have ever seen in my life. If you had made the rat the same size as a human, then the rats balls would be the size of a basketball. I wish my phone wasn't dying or I wish I had a camera to take a picture of it because it was crazy. To get a mental picture for you rat havers/lovers flip your rat on to his/her stomach and put two of the bigest almonds you have on your rat's crotch region and image that there is some skin around it and thats about the size.


http://www.myspace.com/xlivefreex18
Lurk Chris he likes it.

Terror

So for a while now I've been hearing scratches on my wall next to my bed at night (which is usually the only time I'm ever home). I've got a few theories on what is going on.

Theory Number 1:

A worm hole opened up underneath my bed. That is not all though.



This jerk is scratching around for cookies through the worm hole and hitting my wall. It would also explain all the cookie crumbs in my bed. I don't eat cookies in the bed and neither does my dog.

Theory Number 2:

There is a tag-team special going on.

This jerk stares at my dog through the window and drives her crazy by day.



And this jerk runs up side of my house closest to my room and makes me think something is in my room to get me.

I can't figure it out.

Making It Lively

This is Fay...


Fay is a tropical storm that I had some good times with even though our relationship was short. She got my friends out of high school for four days. Except Gabe cause he went to Seminole High and they could care less if their students live or die. Colin, Josh, Zach, and I spent the night at Dober's house on the night that Fay was bringing the heaviest rain. We decided to go play in the rain and it was awesome! We went to a playground not too far from Dober's house and messed around. When the slides are wet you go down them at least 10 times faster than usual. This made it extremely fun. Everyone got in their birthday suits and ran around doing what crazy naked teenagers do. For some reason I did not take part in the birthday suit extravaganza and I'm usually the first to "unmask" myself.



I've been listening to this song and loving the video for days now. Its a gift and a curse and I thank Matty for showing me it.




My friend Victoria took some nice pictures of me not too long ago. She has some really good work for people modeling and band photos. I'd check her out. Plus she is off the chain! Plus she was the biggest Good Charlotte fan forever ago. No one could compare.



These are some of my good friends that are in a sweet metal band. I don't really like metal too much anymore, but these guys are sick and when I mean sick I mean siqq. Their recordings do not do them justice in anyway. Plus my buddy Kristian just joined the band making them even more siqq. I've also got a part in one of their songs. I'm not retired yet!

Homewrecker

Today was off the chain and a whole lot more. The bike ride I had with Chris to Sanford didn't happen. No one else was able and it started pouring rain before it hit 12pm. I hung out with Trent and we went to Arby's to meet Matty. Seriously the loudest dudes ever haha. They were going crazy in Arby's, plus Matty ate a ton of food. Went back to Trent's house and did our usual nothing like we always do haha. A few hours go by and we meet up with some of their friends at Moe's. This got a little weird. We were waiting in line to get food and Matty saw some girls come in and said something like this to me "Dude get at it man!" and it happen to be the last girl friend I had. We hadn't really spoken since our relationship kinda fizzled out. I gave a her a little hello and that was about it. Awkward. We picked up Kristian after Moe's and did some more nothing. Tiny Tim came over and we went to downtown DeLand to see this show going on. I saw a bunch of people I hadn't seen in a while and pretty much just talked to Chris the whole time. It was good that we went. None of us had money to get into the show and we could have gotten in for free, but we left shortly after. Trent and I went home with Jeff who I just met. He was a cool dude and everyone else left to go get Preston. The night ended by Thaine, Jeff, and I joking the night away.

Keep It Up Kid

I don't know if I'm going to be making the move to Tallahassee anymore. I know I wont be moving in with Jack and Nelson, which sucks. My friend Robert that lives up there gave me some details about a place I could live up there with him. Hopefully he doesn't need me to move up there right away, because I have no money and no jobs are coming my way. My parents are in the beginning stages of moving. I don't want to go with them though, so I don't know what I'm going to do.

Out of Touch

I've been home for about two weeks now. I was going to be in Tallahassee right now with No Harm Done on their west coast tour, but I got an offer. Jack that now plays bass for No Harm Done offered to have me split a room with in the new house he is getting. I'm not paying that much to live their so its something I want badly. The bad news is that jobs are few and far between right now. I've been looking and no one is hiring me. I'm selling some stuff. I'm still trying to move in by September, but I don't know if its going to happen if I don't get some money in. I wrote in a journal of everyday I was on this past tour with NHD. I'll be putting that up when I stop being lazy.

Faster Than Paul Revere

Tomorrow I should be embarking out on a nice like tour up the east coast and Canada. Went through the trouble getting an ID card and my other ID forms. Its good to get out of this state and out of the country. I'm not going to miss much, maybe my dog.

Here is the band I'm going with and the places I'll be. Hopefully most of the shows will be filled in. People are very lazy to send the information about shows.

http://www.myspace.com/noharmdonefl

Forgot My Keys Today

Matt Cantwell read something by Russ Rankin lately. Basically he was tired of saying the words "Thank You." Especially if the person is doing their job. Russ Rankin then said he wasn't going to say it anymore. Matt and Thomas Cantwell and I decided to not say it anymore either. I must say it is a very hard thing to do. We resort to other things such as the "head nod" and my favorite "I appreciate it." The next step to say nothing at all. To fully understand this you need to know who Russ Rankin is. If you don't then its not funny at all.

In other news the Detroit Red Wings won the Stanley Cup. I much rather have the New Jersey Devils win, but hey. I'm glad Detroit won cause if Pittsburgh won I'd be very pissed off.

Survival List

Think back, way back. Back to the time when you had the power to choose chocolate or vanilla and could take a poop by yourself. What made us happy back then? Think. We didn't have a care in the world. We didn't really need any sort of substance or tool to make us happy or put us in a good mood. Living was enough for us and from what I remember it was great. Fast forward to today. What do we have to do to make ourselves live? Sure we have more things to worry about than sitting in the dirt and getting bugs in our mouths. But has it really changed that much? I remember going to just walk around my house as a little kid and just being happy with looking around. Today I wonder if anyone else still does that. I go on a bike ride just about everyday and do the exact same thing. No iPod shoved in my ears, just the enjoyment of nothing. A great portion of people I know can only do that after they take some kind of hallucinogen. Yesterday we had fun just being in existence, now what makes us happy or occupies our time? Is it emptying bottles, getting a fix, or is it the person you had sex with recently that you never going to talk to again? Why do we need a substance to make things better? I don't use any substances to make myself feel better, happier, or alive. Your going to have to tell me.

Ask Us For More

I've been out of school for a week and had my graduation ceremony last Saturday. Everything is going pretty darn good. Hopefully I'll be going back to school in the fall. I'll be making this next tour with No Harm Done up the east coast and into Canada. It should be a lot of fun. Its going to be hard to get a job for a month and then quit. I doubt I'll be able to keep a job if I start and then leave for three weeks or so. Looks like things with Rebecca and I didn't work out. Not sure why, but I'm cool with it. Maybe I call her sometime soon. Went to two shows this past weekend. The Gator Bait CD release and the Fallen From The Sky CD release. Both were very fun. FFTS was the best because of the tiny bar it was in and massive amount of people that were there. I got to see my buddy Jonathan Millan at his new job at Buckle. Its a very over priced store with decent clothing. It was good seeing him though. Hopefully we can jam out or something soon cause its been too long. Thomas won a tie-dye Harley Davidson tank top on Ebay today. Its amazing.

The Last Day

I stayed the same when you tried to change that. Am I not here? I know I'm not fucking invisible. I wanted to feel again and now I remember why I put an end to it.

Give me!

I try to be and selfless as possible. Its going really good. The other day I said something that I shouldn't have. Its something that would be cool if it didn't happen, but its too much about what I want. Time to fix it.

Other than that life is fantastic. The weather is super hot/super nice. Its prefect bike riding weather. Hopefully I can get Becky into riding bikes sow e can do it together. College seems a little out of reach right now. I have no car or license. Still haven't done the drug and alcohol test and I have no credit card to pay for it myself online. Hopefully the DMV still does it. On top of that no money haha. I knew I'd ahve to take out a ton of loans anyway. Oh well, everything will fall into place.